Smiling With Tears in My Eyes

Smiling with tears in my eyes, I was not that cute in the pool, but I understand, you got jokes. 

I caught myself trolling Facebook when my feed was suddenly filled with clips and reels from Chris Brown.

The first thing I'm going to say is, Drai's is closed, so you know I'm not coming to party and go through all of that again.

Next, hey fam...

Joyce, you know your son is somewhere cutting up, looking for a reason. We should be fine now.

RoRo, hey baby... how old are you now???

Nia, I'm too tired and in too much pain to talk about it right now.

Aeko, gimme kisses...

I don't know the other children, and you know I'm divided about taking care of another child. When we left Vegas in 2018, you had one child. Now you have a litter.

Usher, stop coaching him for what you desire for yourself. Don't play with me. Where's Kody???

Chris, you make me cry, not because I fear you, but because you mean to tell me that you're the only one who cares?

Janet threw me under the bus with that drama. I was in so much denial, distracted by Dawn and Lisa, that I never saw it coming.

That's my entire career, built and based on Michael Jackson. For heaven's sake, I was supposed to be his children's surrogate, and I got stuck with this hand?

I love all of my children, but if I can't get credit for what I've done, why do more???

I want to celebrate you in so many ways, but I'm tired.

I want so badly to believe that you're stepping in to invest in my business. Then I remind myself of the betrayal of others. I'm not lying to myself this round.

I don't remember people who wanted to forget me. Is this something to keep me busy for the summer???

Chris, thank you for being crazy enough to follow every word, but I can't handle this right now, baby.

I've been drugged up from dental work. I'm struggling with emotions, I'm dealing with deadlines, and I'm missing my children so badly I can't breathe.

I'm proud of you, baby. You have a doctrine. You are now a father of four. You officially have a girl collection.

So why are you flexing when you know I don't play that shit???

Anyway... hello to the #KIDZ and the tour dancers. Yes, I know where you are, rehearsing and preparing for the tour.

I know your hotel close to me, and I can hear you everywhere...

Yes, I know Chris knows where I live. Jay-Z told everyone a month ago...

You know I have SPECIAL TEETH. My teeth have deep roots. I've been told they are deeper than normal. It takes three times the Novocain to numb my nerves. My dentist might have used too much. My jaw has been locked since June 5. I'm not making excuses. I've pressed forth, but I'm tired of the drama.

I'm tired of being the genie in the bottle for jokes.

I'm thankful you recovered from COVID. You maintained and sustained. Please be sure to learn from your mistakes and proceed with caution. 

Pay your taxes, focus on performance not politics, don't take anything personal... don't get caught with your guard down

I AM NOT GOING ON TOUR WITH YOU... LOL 

I haven't seen you since Presidential Towers.

RoRo, you know I am real... that's all that matters to me.

What happened when GOD performed in Atlanta??? August 8, 2022 ... that was cool.

#GoCrazy... Chris caught me having a conversation with GOD and the Devil...

He whispered wassup :) What???

You know how I pray... 

You know how GOD responds...

I love you, baby.

#Nanna

P.S. LVMPD IF YOU CHECK MY POLICE REPORT ... CHRIS BROWN IS A NAMED WITNESS

MEANWHILE BACK IN VEGAS... CHRIS BROWN SHUT DOWN THE STRIP #OBVIOUS IT'S OKAY VEGAS IS USED TO HIM FOLLOWING ME #H2H "He turned my banner photo into a video"

2017 Chris Brown saga starts...Did he just walk up on me?

HEY CHRIS... THAT LOOKS LIKE A #COMMERCIAL "If I didn't know any better, that might be a #INVESTOR #TIP Did you just add a plane???

First of all you started off with promising me mansion #Tempo

Then we danced off a Pier in Santa Monica #Undecided

Now you are taking over Vegas with Chevy #Obvious

All vehicles must meet the 6000 pound qualification

I prefer Hybrids

You know Fletcher Mercedes is my Dealer of Choice

Chris needs "specifics" and he will follow, that is what I love about him the most

GB2G HAPPY FATHERS DAY... I MISS YOU SO MUCH I can reprint my certificate from you

So help me GOD... intercession prayer

Letter to Former President George W. Bush (43) and First Lady Laura Bush

Happy Father's Day, GB2G,

How I miss our time together in the White House. I am so thankful anytime I can see you and Ma G. You know our relationship is not predicated on anything but the wonderful years you entrusted to me. I miss studying with you, traveling with you, partying with you, but most of all, just being in your presence. I lost my original letter, along with DJ's ashes, my transcripts, everything. I can reprint and put it in a frame.

ARCHIVES: GEORGE W BUSH AND MA BUSH

Hey Ma G, how are you, honey? Things have changed so much, so fast, not sure how we got here, but okay.

The one thing I appreciate the most about you and Trump is you don't suffocate me with non-stop drama. I have never been this stressed out! I live in one of the most exciting places in the world, and I cannot celebrate it.

The doors that I opened for others were slammed in my face. I tried to rematch, but every rewind I read something that angered me more than the 1st view.

What I don't want you to do is worry, please don't worry. You were, are, and forever will be my favorite Presidential Fathers.

I reflect over what I did accomplish in my life. I regret not being able to travel internationally and seeing the world as planned. Maybe it's best for me to just sit still and be silent.

Ma, I started a new garden. I'm trying grow bags, but I need buckets. I thought about a pet, but that causes problems. I wanted to foster children, then changed my mind.

I don't want to pour love into something new to have it taken from me, it's just where I am right now.

Unlike some people who take advantage of their access to exploit, expose, and cash in on who I am, you have always been there guiding me step by step, thank you.

I occasionally check in on Jen, she has bloomed into a beautiful flower. You have grandchildren and are full of love.

I know the grandchildren are keeping you busy, that's good. Enjoy your days, you are blessed.

Finally, from my lips to your ears.

I have never felt unequal, less in value, demeaned, or undermined with you. I was always... no matter what!!!

You protected, respected, and honored my name, my grandmother's legacy, and who I was raised to be.

I keep explaining to people, I don't have time to play games, I have big shoes to fill.

I'm sure you know, but let me tell you for myself... I started my business!!!

I made my dream come true in Vegas, now I must build on my foundation. I thought I was doing all of this for my children, but they chose their own paths, so now I do it for me.

Remember when I wanted to be a lawyer? Okay, I will use that knowledge to stay on top of issues, thankful that was not my path.

I do, however, want to use my time, talents, and skills to teach others how to be entrepreneurs.

I start my notary classes next week, and I'm in the process of licensing for pop-ups.

I was not expecting to see you, what a beautiful surprise. That made me smile, it really did, and you brought Angela Merkel!

How are the leaders from the G8? I can make you laugh... yes, I can.

What speech did I accidentally start cursing, and the open mic heard me say "Shit"? I have all notes and speeches.

The 2006 G8 Summit: During a private conversation with then-British Prime Minister Tony Blair regarding international conflict, an open microphone captured Bush using a swear word while expressing his frustration with the regional political situation.

I miss traveling the world in your eyes.

I close with, I'm the woman you helped mold. Your contributions to my success are not overlooked or ignored.

The move to Vegas was best for me, it's difficult for others to embrace who and what I am. To be truthful, it's nobody's business. I'm living my life as best as possible.

The cost of living here is comfortable. I will eventually build and expand into a home with a private pool.

I can study remote from home once I have my income streams established. I must complete my degree, that's a personal goal that's attainable.

I want to cook, but will focus on my pop-up shops while establishing my mobile and online notary services.

Ma, have you seen my cookbook? I need to practice on my biscuits, pie crust, and cakes. What I don't want to do is fatten up.

I have not spoken to you in so long, but I know you're reading. Merkel would not attend without you being present.

I could elaborate, but... that was so disrespectful, without me he wouldn't be President... sigh.

I thank you for checking in on me. I thank you and those who pray for me. I didn't want to watch, but heard the attendance list and watched after the event ended.

Ma, you wore green, and everyone knew, "Chevy in Vegas smoking weed." Are you smoking Sativa or Indica? Of course, I'll keep my eyes on your girls.

Okay, my jaw is finally healing!!! My headaches are getting better, I'm not sobbing when I speak.

Have you ever seen someone on laughing gas after dental work??? I refuse to share these videos. My sight is slowly being restored... but I'm alive.

Happy Mother's Day, Ma, all respect and love.

Happy Father's Day, Pop, thank you for giving me a reason to say that.

Angela came from Germany, that was cool.

Oh yes, best news of the day. Mustapha is marrying Janet, no further access needed for either. He is no longer my assignment, she was never my friend.

I DID NOT GET A INVITE??? FOR REAL??? Start this video at 2:39 please and thank you Now take your ruthless #Gentrifying Ass back to your #Partner #STFOMF

Megachurch Murder | Full Movie |#RIP Malcom-Jamal Warner I Tamala Jones | Corbin Bleu

 

Dear GOD... So I watched Purge Election Day ...

Then I saw another reason to take 2 pain killers... I'll pray about it...

Are my eyes tripping??? 

Or was that the scene from... 

I know this is a movie...