Saturday, April 4, 2026
TAKING A WEEKEND OFF TO GET ME TOGETHER "I Don’t Know If It’s Day or Night… But I Know I’m Healing"
I don’t even know if it’s day or night anymore.
This past week has been one of the most draining, challenging, and mentally testing weeks I’ve had in a long time. The kind of week where your body is present, but your mind is trying to catch up. My biggest struggle?
Honestly… just keeping track of time. Day blurred into night, and night rolled right back into morning.
I’ve been waking up at 3:00 am, training my brain to align with East Coast deadlines posting, planning, executing then turning right around and handling everything else life requires of me. My work schedule and personal life have completely shifted, and I’m doing my best to keep up without losing myself in the process.
And if I’m being honest… I’m doing too much.
I’ve been building a professional website, finding vendors, searching for capital, trying to balance business with a private life, and still showing up every day like nothing is heavy. But it is heavy.
And that’s okay to admit.
This week, I also completed the classes required to restore my driving privileges. I won’t lie I’m not excited about driving again. But it’s necessary. It’s part of rebuilding.
I’m taking my time with creating my fleet because I understand what’s at stake. Gas prices are high, the market is unpredictable, and the economy feels unstable. Every decision matters right now. I’m not rushing I’m being intentional.
In the middle of all this… I got beautiful news.
I’m going to be a grandmother again!!!
My baby boy is having another baby, and my heart is full just thinking about it. Life has a way of balancing chaos with joy, and I’m choosing to hold onto that joy tightly.
Because after two years of being displaced… I can finally say I’m regaining my stability.
And that means everything.
But let me be real for a moment this week wasn’t just physically exhausting, it was mentally overwhelming. I’ve been dealing with stress, memories, and situations that forced me to revisit parts of my life I didn’t want to relive. During my sessions, I had to go all the way back to 2002 processing events, questioning things that still don’t make sense, and realizing how much confusion has surrounded certain moments in my life.
It’s a lot to carry.
And it made me realize something important: I am not exempt from life. None of us are.
We all go through trials. We all face moments that test our sanity, our strength, and our spirit. And I’m not ashamed to say that my mental health has taken a hit this week. Lack of sleep, emotional overload, constant pressure it adds up.
I have not had a full night’s sleep all week.
So right now, I’m choosing me.
I’m choosing rest. I’m choosing peace. I’m choosing to step back from constant content, constant noise, and constant expectations. I need time to let my brain process everything that’s been happening.
And I’m giving myself permission to do exactly that.
I’m sleeping until my body feels rested.
I’m eating until my body feels nourished.
I’m drinking water until my soul feels replenished.
And most importantly I’m protecting my energy.
This version of me might feel different to some people. Quieter. More reserved. But this is growth. I’m stepping into a “speak only as needed” lifestyle.
My mindset now is simple:
Why am I talking… and is it worth my time?
Because time is valuable. Energy is valuable. And peace? That’s priceless.
I’m not entertaining negativity. I’m not engaging in distractions. I’m not feeding into anything that doesn’t align with where I’m going. I know who I am. I know what I’m building. And I know what I deserve.
So if I seem distant, understand it’s not personal.
It’s intentional.
To anyone reading this who feels overwhelmed, exhausted, or mentally drained I see you. Take your time. Rest. Reset. You don’t have to have everything figured out overnight.
Give yourself grace.
I promise… I’ll be back soon.
But right now, I’m choosing me.
KEY POINTS:
During my sessions, I learned I was arrested for DUI on my way to buy beer, nothing was documented about my car crashing into a truck, my brakes being cut, not even a breathe test to see if I was drinking ( I was not).
My brakes were cut and I collided into a 18 wheeler truck which actually saved my life.
As I listened to the instructor trying to justify my being present, he presented questions even I could not answer.
Similar to the incident at Santa Monica pier establishing this pattern.
How hateful can you be to cause all of this confusion and chaos, and for what???
How diminted can you be to act so hateful and ungrateful? I honestly care less about Scottie his feelings or emotions.
I can easily forget that I know him with a smile, his ignorance does not affect my relationship with others in the NBA, his reckless jealous rants only justify his ignorance proving why I don't waste my time.
You keep chasing me looking for attention for him, you can stop!
I never have, nor will I ever feed into his childish behavior.
Furthermore, this is the same individual who betrayed Michael Jordan, and you expect him to be loyal?
Your as delusional as he is, that individual does not have any relevance in my life, I promise.
Now, I pray that you are as focused on restoring your mental health and well-being as I am.
Giving myself permission to rest.
I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND & AGREE
Coco Jones is opening up about a past relationship and why independence means everything to her now.
The singer shared that she’d rather be homeless than rely on a man, explaining that her perspective comes from a toxic situation where money was used as a form of control.
According to Coco, that experience changed how she views relationships, especially when it comes to financial independence and personal freedom.
She emphasized that being able to stand on your own is more than just money, it’s about not feeling trapped or dependent in ways that limit your choices.
Her comments have sparked a wider conversation online, with some supporting her stance on independence, while others say relationships should still be about partnership, not extremes.
Friday, April 3, 2026
Thursday, April 2, 2026
TONIGHT AT LIV!!! DJ #SHAQ
FREE ADMISSION ON ME
MY APOLOGIES
"If I missed work, I'll have to miss this party"
The last time we tried to party #Fire #UNLV #PostOffice
Wednesday, April 1, 2026
I SAID IT!!! AND TRULY MEAN IT!!! Busy in HEARINGS regarding my "June 11, 2002 crash with Pippen"
3 days (today is Day 2)
I Return to Work And I Don’t Have Time to Spare
As I prepare to return to work next week, one thing is clear I honestly don’t have time to spare.
I’ve been in a season of creative isolation. Not because I had to be, but because I chose to be. I made a decision to focus on building my future, establishing my business, and prioritizing my personal wellness. Growth requires discipline. And discipline requires sacrifice.
I’m excited truly excited to teach others how to build success. But let me be honest: I have no room in my life for nonsense, drama, or tragedy. I sincerely pray for those who lack creativity, ambition, or vision for their future. Because without those things, you’re not living you’re existing.
Maybe it’s my upbringing. Maybe it’s my life experiences. But I’ve found peace in my bubble. A space where I can focus more on me and less on distractions. I’ve learned to be intentional with my energy. I promote, support, and align myself with people I actually know, work with, and trust.
No matter what drama may exist from my past, one thing remains unchanged the people who know and love me still do.
Building Something Real
I’ve officially launched my soft opening phase.
Right now, I’m in the trenches:
Creating menus
Pricing vendors
Budgeting costs
Recruiting staff
This is the part people don’t see.
My grandmother used to say, “If you stay ready, you won’t have to get ready.” And I live by that.
It would be foolish to ask for funding without first counting the cost.
Here’s the reality:
Move-in cost: $7,500
Monthly facility cost: $4,600
(Not including staff or inventory)
This is why planning matters. I’m not chasing success I’m preparing for it. Because failure doesn’t happen overnight… it happens when you fail to prepare.
Once I secure my location, the real work begins cleaning, stocking, training. I’m giving myself 60–90 days to bring everything to life.
And today April 1st I already have a full schedule. Appointments. Moves. Execution.
A Necessary Truth
Forgive me for being blunt, but this needs to be said:
Check the people in your life.
Do they build you up or break you down?
If you don’t like me for who I was when you met me, I am perfectly fine with you excusing yourself from my success. There’s no hard feelings just boundaries.
My kindness has been mistaken for weakness more times than I can count. But understand this:
Meeting me does NOT mean you know me.
Reading my blog only gives you a glimpse.
There’s depth here. There’s purpose here.
What’s Your Assignment?
I know what my assignment is.
What’s yours?
I share pieces of my journey not for applause but to spark something in you. Because watching me build does nothing for you… if all you’re doing is watching.
There are people who talk.
There are people who walk.
But the question is
Can you walk the walk and talk the talk?
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