I recently had an “interaction” with someone from my past. The type of person who only reaches out with the intent to trigger emotions, provoke reactions, and manipulate energy. But this time was different. Instead of responding emotionally, I observed. I realized how desperate and needy some people become when they can no longer control your mind, your emotions, or your peace.
The audacity of someone I once employed trying to bully, intimidate, or interfere with my thinking was actually eye-opening. It made me realize something important: I have spent so much of my life building others, encouraging others, supporting others… and now it is finally time to pour that same energy into myself.
I understand why people become obsessed with me. If you ever meet me, you’ll understand too. I’m authentic, resilient, creative, loving, and strong. But one thing I have learned is how to protect my peace of mind and leave my past exactly where it belongs.
When I tell you SP did me a favor, I mean that. He helped sort people out of my life who never should have been involved in the first place. The groupies who thought they were competing, the fans who became emotionally invested in things that had nothing to do with them, the people who enjoyed confusion and chaos more than truth.
And honestly… if I’m “not relevant,” why are people still responding?
Discernment is a gift. I give honor and glory to GOD, who continues to be my protection, provision, and praise. I also thank GOD for therapy. My therapist gives me a neutral voice, someone who helps me sort through emotions, reality, trauma, healing, and growth. There is strength in asking for help and clarity.
My ability to detect dishonesty and manipulation has become sharper than ever before. I cannot fully explain it, and honestly, I no longer question GOD’s direction in my life.
These days, I am walking through life with blinders on. Focused. Intentional. Protected.
I have never handled rejection perfectly. I’m human like everyone else. Writing has become one of the healthiest ways for me to release anxiety, confusion, and emotion. And the more I search for jobs, the more GOD keeps redirecting me toward entrepreneurship and building something of my own.
When I tell you I found most of my banners, signage, tent, tablecloths, and business supplies on "TEMU" www.temu.com, I mean it proudly. I furnished most of my apartment and appliances through smart budgeting and preparation. Every check, I invested into my future and my peace. I’m not embarrassed by rebuilding my life I’m proud of it.
I bought a juicer yesterday, and now my juices will be fresh pressed. The same drinks people spend $15 a bottle for, I’m learning to create myself. That’s growth. That’s healing. That’s self-sufficiency.
I’ve been in my kitchen cooking with love, creating meals exactly the way I want them. My poke bowl yesterday? Full of flavor, peace, and healing energy.
I know I’m getting better because things that once triggered me no longer have power over me. Healing looks different when you stop chasing validation and start embracing peace.
I’m focused now.
Focused on launching June 1.
Focused on networking through the summer.
Focused on transitioning into online, remote, and appointment-based business services.
Focused on completing my notary training and loan signing certification.
Focused on building a future that belongs to me.
To everyone wondering why I’ve been quiet online lately life has been moving fast. Appointments, meetings, deadlines, rebuilding my home, rebuilding myself. Sometimes silence means growth is happening behind the scenes.
And yes… I have a BIG announcement coming soon.
I’m preparing a special space in my home for two new additions, and I cannot wait to share this next chapter with all of you. Big reveal coming soon, so don’t forget to check on me.
I’ve also been laughing again. Healing again. Finding joy again. I checked Facebook recently and saw clips from Brooks that literally had me crying laughing. And I still enjoy seeing the energy around the We Them Ones Comedy Tour.
Life is teaching me that healing is not about forgetting. It is about moving forward while protecting your spirit.
I know who I am.
I know what I survived.
I know what GOD has carried me through.
And despite every obstacle, blessing after blessing continues pouring into my life. It feels like GOD is replacing painful memories with new beginnings, new opportunities, and renewed peace.
To every woman who has ever felt unseen, rejected, or emotionally exhausted after giving her all I understand your pain. But never forget: your worth is not determined by who failed to appreciate you.
My GOD shall provide all my needs according to His riches in glory.
This next chapter?
It belongs to me.
I know I'm getting better, things that normally trigger me no longer upset me. You see when SP responded it validated me. His phone number was displayed to everyone in the box.
If you Google 8477701100 the number has belonged to Scottie for years. It gave me peace of mind in so many ways. In his own pathetic and lowly way, he responded jealous of Gary, trying to show out.
Calvin my former employer from the nightclub, Brian Jackson, photographer from Chicago Sun-Times, Sonya D., my home, Oakley and Hodges former teammates all read his text.
I invited him to Vegas, yes this is a open carry city... of course I know I'm being followed, I'm comfortable with it now. SP is not going to cause me harm, you see he is begging for attention.
You have questions, I know... he made fools out of too many people to manifest. To those of you who attacked me, slandered my name, chose him over me. You are just as guilty, because you enjoyed my trauma. Here's a update his responses "healed me". I am that prize wife he played his heart and soul for. I put 6 rings on his hand, you can't take that away from me. Whether you acknowledge me or not. My heart is at peace, he is not my imagination, I am not delusional, he is very real.
My biggest regret is I lost my son, because he wanted to impress a wife who never loved him.
Thank you for all of the free publicity, sorry I'm not a porn star or groupie freak. But I cook a monster lasagna, if SP was half the man he was supposed to be I'd have funding for every idea I have.
I close with this for real women who understands my point. I gave him a son (Wendy Williams) my best wasn't good enough but I did my best. I'm not begging for what I earned, my GOD shall provide all my needs, according to his riches in glory.
Every since he responded, blessings have poured into my life. It is as if GOD is wiping away my tears, replacing bad memories and preparing for the new.
My plan is to launch June 1, to network the Summer, then convert to online and remote, with on call appointments.
I finish notary Training, then loan signings. My apologies I have not posted or uploaded anything new. I have been "consumed" with appointments, meetings, deadlines while trying to put my house and life together.
I have a "big announcement" coming, preparing a space in my place for two new additions. Big reveal coming, don't forget to check up on me.
I checked Facebook, Brooks is one of those comedians who just makes me "cry laughing"... even if I'm not at the show, check out We Them Ones comedy show...
When my son died Mike Epps appearance in Kendrick Lamar video Don't kill my vibe, "depicting my son Devonte funeral", makes me emotional. For those of you who know the background.
He won't touch me, he just made fools out of every judge in Illinois.
May 2, 2025 he paid a Judge to dismiss a $300 Default Judgment, i should mail these text to every judge in Cook County who ruled against me, knowing Devonte was his son.
