Have you ever read the quote, “I’m not concerned about what you were told what bothers me is why they told you”?
That line has stayed with me, because betrayal isn’t betrayal unless it involves someone you trusted. That truth is exactly why my circle is so small.
What I’ve learned sometimes painfully is how to treat myself without burden. To enjoy whoever God places in my life for that season, without forcing permanence where it doesn’t belong. Some people are chapters, not the whole book.
The last few months changed me.
I just recovered from three months of absolute fear the kind that sits in your chest and refuses to let you sleep. I was terrified that I might have been contaminated, contracted, infected with HIV. The entire month of August and part of September, I battled an unknown virus that completely overtook my immune system. I won’t pretend to be strong about it that was the scariest time of my life, especially to go through it alone.
But that season taught me something powerful: strength, endurance, and clarity. My prayer life increased. And more importantly, my wisdom kicked into high gear.
After being displaced by Hilton right when I was on a fast track toward long-term success I had to regroup. I had to sit still and ask myself hard questions. Why did I move to Las Vegas? What was my purpose really? The answer came back clear: to establish C.A.V. Enterprises and to live the life I want, not the life others want to script for me.
In 2026, I am creating a new version of myself.
A stronger me.
A more disciplined me.
A more powerful me.
Everything God promised is yes and amen.
I no longer need or depend on people who cannot add value to my life or my purpose. I don’t care who it is. Access to me is no longer automatic.
And for the record: no, I do not have HIV. The disappointment I heard in someone’s voice when they learned that truth said everything I needed to know. My failure would have been convenient. My pain would have been entertainment. That chapter is closed. You will never have to worry about me again.
To those who have shown consistency and character your presence never goes unnoticed. And to those who continue to surprise me, thank you for reminding me that integrity still exists.
As I move forward, I am not carrying certain institutions, spaces, or histories into 2026 with me. I must protect my mind. I never know who or what is listening, talking, or interpreting. Removing myself from the equation brings peace, simplicity, and focus. That is no longer negotiable.
I will NO LONGER stream attend service with:
Operation PUSH
New Birth Missionary Baptist Church
Salem Baptist Church of Chicago
West LA COGIC
Let me be clear about something else: it is no longer acceptable to create AI images of me. I understand it may come from a place of curiosity or care, but my goals right now are personal. They are private. They are mine.
I have had enough of talking about what I’ve done for others.
It’s time to work on self.
And here’s the part I’m excited about:
I am returning to school.
I’m currently collecting my transcripts with the goal of starting next spring. This marks the beginning of a new career chapter and alongside that, I’m preparing for my first acquisition in March 2026. Quiet moves. Strategic planning. Real growth.
Spiritually, this has also been a tender year. Losing Pope Francis was deeply traumatizing for me. I haven’t yet embraced the new Pope, for many personal reasons. My faith has not changed but my public access to it has. Some things are sacred enough to be guarded.
Finally, I am processing the pain surrounding the Reiner family tragedy differently than most. I know firsthand what it’s like to deal with a violent child. I cannot imagine the depth of fear, grief, and confusion that comes when your own child tries to take your life. My prayers are with that family all of them.
So yes, 2026 brings a new attitude.
Less noise.
Less explanation.
More purpose.
More boundaries.
More obedience to God.
And above all more peace.
This next chapter is about becoming.
